Sunday, September 18, 2011

longest exam period

initially, it looks promising. Most probably it's because of the gap between each paper, we can fully utilize it to regenerate physically and start on new revision. Not until i experience it myself, now i prefer a not-so-pack exam period. Optimum is exam once, rest another day or 2 days. Too many days like now very demotivating, especially you know previous paper is a total disaster. No matter how many days of rest, the emo-ness can drag until the last minute.

When it approaching next paper, i have to pack up my mood to study, these moods are such bad asses that can't just resolve in any second you desire. Seeing everyone in their lowest performance for revision, i can't help mainly coz i'm one of them. After calculated needing to achieve at least B- in last 3 papers, it kind of mixed feeling. Motivated due to no other choice but have to work my body all out. Fade up due to the down surrounding, for instance the mood isn't just smurfing there *urgh :/

i observe my friends that are attached, their results getting better than before, even better than me. All these obviously is the encouragement & pushing of the other half. For me, i thought of this few days back. If they have a human that can help them to succeed in their study, how about me that have a higher being that called me to be His child. Currently i just want to ask for determination, perseverance, strength to overcome this final examination period. Left alone problems such as christmas event, cell group, captain ball, publicity, t-shirt... Lord, i don't know what else to ask for, i'm just lost. I don't wish to underachieve this semester, which will lead me to loan-less in 3rd sem.

You delivered me before, many times that i took granted again and again. I pray that you can bring me and my housemates up, to face this challenge with confident & courage. Whatever past is about, the only things we are able to change is future, upcoming papers. May You keep us together, that we can help one another, give us hope that can overcome this calamities. Hereby want to surrender unto Your hands, nobody can do this alone, except You who can empower us. Keep the spirit until the end, He is with us, my mates. In Jesus' Name, Amen.