2 more hours to 6

apparently imma bored now in the middle of the night.. sleep? not so soon unless i have study.. recently quite hard to commit myself into doing stuff, lots of things.. feeling discourage >_< where have all my passions gone? i used to make myself present in every meeting, but now i constantly giving excuse. "i ady done something( big perhaps?) so time to rest, skipppp..." "i involved into something( big again?), they surely und why i absent"

i always suffer physically tired, not sure whether lazy or what.. i told myself even 21k can finished, how about lil stuff that doesn't require much energy.. can't let myself con't to be in this state, help me Lord~ lift me up, walk with me, i tired of being alone with pre-believers.. i know its God's will i stay with them at the beginning, as i join lesser activities and mix with bro n sis, i started to be like them *sad to say this.. i'm just wearing out.. everyday i insists to seek You, no matter how unwilling it is, hoping to find back what i had lost, can i?

i used to have joy and peace in doing anything.. what you see now is appearance only, in my heart only God knows what i'm going through.. im confuse about the causes of these.. lead me to see the hope, Jesus.. You're my only way.. i easy to lose out patient, teach me O' Lord to be gracious.. to content with what i have now..

Lord Jesus, may my mind be renew, heart refresh once again. You're my life, my comfort, provider. Let my eye see not only short term, of the hardships i'm having now but the bigger picture that comes from you, to build me up, grow more mature spiritually. Lord, your unfailing love can only satisfy my heart, none other things from this earth, and your love is for me, forever. Forgive me for self-condemnation, i thankful that i'm worthy in your sight, you will be with me until the end of the earth. In Jesus's name, amen.

turn your eye upon Jesus,
 look full in His wonderful face,
  and the things of the earth will grow strangely dim,
   in the light of His glory and grace.   

renew

thanks for making ipoh a place that i will come back more often, a place that i cherish, you just changed my dull ipoh mindset into something lively, fill with hope..

probably today is the last day i see you till you come back again, even i'm back on next week you also on vacation with family.. after that, you will con't study abroad.. i'm sure you will be His light at there, a daily living testimonial life.. thanks for the encouragement, i will strive for my best in ministry :D fight for Christ, God bless~

end of sem break

nothing more, just too soon to approach another semester.. i used to love kampar a lots but this time is a bit odd.. all those excitement, keenness to kick off my semester seem like missing.. perhaps, i already know how this sem gonna pass.. 4 days 8 am class and another day doesn't make any different, 9.30 am.. gosh, i gotta adapt another lifestyle or else my name will appear on bar list..


i can feel the stress of academic even before i attend any class.. by looking through the subjects i taking, *sigh~ i can imagine how tough are it gonna be.. just listening the course's title is already sounds technical to me.. so, work HARDer, that's the answer..


about this holidays, wow~ i love it very much.. vacation in bali, meeting old friends, attending youth meeting and many more~ oh, Chinese New Year in a fortnight away, imma so of course happy la haha.. haven't prepare yet, buy new clothes, new hairdo but will settle in these days.. hope i have nuff $$ :D

sleeping hour, good night everyone XD enjoy your week~




  

happening

am still sick now.. hope to get better by tomorrow, i wanna go youth meeting :D i want to blog about my bali trip.. i want to, i want to, i want to... recover~

random night

argh.. final in few days time still i lagging around.. *sigh~ seeing notes lying on the bed beside me, kinda feel pity coz only find them usable only before the exam.. hope i can learn to appreciate more of you, notties >_< what else can i say, not in the mood to study.. even my house mate said i like in hols more than study week.. omg, these 2 occasions are separated quite a big gap nooo.. must admit also la, facing lappie all day and sleep more than usual hours.. no wonder~

thinking about this coming sem break, i got a bunch of ideas which i always hope how great if it were during my exam.. btw, vacation, motor license, shopping, new hairstyle is what i gonna do.. sadly, all these point back to one common source, $$$.. fine, this is just my plan.. i sure there are plans from You that can enrich my spiritual life during sem break :D

finally, i can feel the tiredness around my body.. *yawn~ can't think much either, sleep YAY!!